Anya's pov 

I was too stunned to move for a while. It's like my whole body is paralysed because of something. He is kissing me? No he is eating my lips as if my lips aren't my lips but candy. I felt my hands working when his hands started roaming around my body. 

I tried to push him hard but he didn't leave me. I tried once again and this time he left me not because I pushed him because he was done sucking my lips. I was panting like I had run a mile in a few minutes and as always he is still breathing normally. 

"How fucking dare you to kiss me? Who gave you the right to touch me huh?" I shouted at him angrily but it didn't feel like he got affected at all 

He looked at me with a smirk on his lips as he wiped the gloss from his lips. Fucktard! I hate him so much. I hate his touch! I don't want him to do anything with me. 

"Do you really hate his touch?" my inner self asked me and I chose to ignore it for now. 

"I don't think I need any permission from anyone to kiss my fiance. My fiance, my wish!" He said and I swear I felt like slapping him hard and as I thought about it I did the same 

I raised my hand to slap him but before I could hit him he held my hand in a painful grip making me hiss at pain. 

"Hold on princess, you're not supposed to raise your hands on your future husband don't repeat this same mistake again ever i don't want to hurt you in any way okay?" he asked me in a cold tone and I kept my mouth shut 

I tried to pull my hand out of his grip but couldn't do that. He is holding my hand in a steel tight grip. 

" I asked you something, didn't I?" he again asked giving more pressure on my hand 

"Leave my hand Caliban I don't want to talk about anything with you. I broke the engagement with you and here take your ring back I don't want anything from you. Just leave me alone, you jerk." I said and tried my best to get rid of his hold but to my surprise he started laughing like a psychopath 

He was laughing as if I cracked some joke and it was so hilarious he couldn't stop laughing at it. 

"Stop laughing at me you bastard. I didn't crack any jokes." I shouted and I felt him gripping my hairs suddenly as he left my hand 

"Don't drag my parents in this mess. How dare you call me a bastard huh? Do you even know what you're saying?" he asked me holding my hairs in a tight grip 

"You're hurting me Caliban. Leave my hair." I said in a pleading way because he is actually hurting me 

Before he wasn't hurting me but now he is because it seems I made him angry. I am not regretting it though because he kissed me without my permission so he deserves it. I don't know about his parents but their son is a jerk. 

"You shouldn't disrespect anyone's parents like this no matter what happens. His parents aren't even alive, don't drag them in your conversation." Samantha said in my head 

I know maybe I am wrong but I don't want to accept that. I hate it when I know I'm wrong! I can't accept my fault that yes I'm wrong at some point. I am a human, not some goddess over here who is perfect. I am not Samantha who will bear everything silently. I'm not good as she is, I can't be like her. 

"Why should I? Why should I leave you when you insulted my parents? What have I done to you that you're behaving like a bitch with me? Who gave you the right to break our engagement alone huh? Didn't I tell you clearly that once you're in my life there is no way out? Didn't i? I warned you many times before as well that I don't love anyone easily but once I do there is no going back from it? You agreed, right? Then why are you doing it?" Caliban asked me making me look at his eyes 

He still hasn't left my hair and it's still hurting. 

"Leave me this instant Caliban knight I won't repeat myself again." I told him seriously looking dead at his eyes 

I won't let him make me weak anymore. His presence is tough for me to handle. I can't deny that I love him. My heart still beats for him! It's not a switch which I can turn on or turn off in a second. His grip was becoming light on my hair but he didn't remove his hand completely yet. 

You haven't done anything yet Caliban but I can't do injustice with myself or Samantha. I love you but I can't forget what they did to me. I will never forgive Rishav or Damien nor anyone else. I saw Rishav in you and that was another reason I fell for you more but his deceit is killing me from inside. He broke me completely and I don't want you to break me again. I can't be another Marium or others. I can't let you kill me Caliban. I can't let you take me to the Devils back. They are inhuman in nature; they have no mercy in their heart. 

How can someone kill their own baby? Even if it's a lie, it's still not done. For Samantha it was real. If I was in her place I would have killed them instead of kill myself. Maybe I wouldn't have done that, no matter what. I don't think I can kill the man I love in anger. I might say I will but in reality it doesn't feel like I can. 

I am so confused my heart yearns for you but my brain says it's wrong in every sense to even think that I can be with you. I don't hate you Caliban I can't but I can't accept you either. I do hate Damien for whatever he did to Samantha. Why will he torture his soulmate without any reason? Why will he attack Samantha? What is going on? I am not understanding anything but for now this needs to end. 

I am burning in the fire of lies you will burn as well you have to as well. 

"I don't want to be with you Caliban. I don't love you nor will I ever. I thought a lot about our relationship but everytime I returned empty handed. Our relationship has no future. I don't think I can ever fit in your world nor you can fit in mine so why bother either? I know that we got engaged but it's not the end of the world right? Even Divorce exists for a reason right? Breaking engagements aren't a big deal. You can tell your granny that you don't like me anymore. Simple! It's not that I'm pregnant by you or something so why bother?" I told him and hoped that he will let me go even though my heart says a total different story 

The guy who destroyed everything just because I was out of sight on our first date can't leave me this easily. I wish it was this easy but alas it isn't! 

His hand came on my cheek as he started caressing my cheek lovingly as Rishav used to do. I saw a different type of madness in his eyes for me. I won't lie, I felt very much scared when I felt him staring at me like that. 

"You think it doesn't matter at all? Our engagement? Our relationship isn't a big deal? The moments we spent together don't matter at all?" he asked me in a tone that I felt as if it wasn't Caliban but someone else is talking to me 

I felt a shiver run down my spine hearing him but I won't be weak at any cost. 

"No it doesn't. So let's end it like adults okay?" I lied without even blinking 

I felt a hurt expression crossing his face which he masked in a blink. Is he hurt by this? No he can't be! He is their human; he can't be good or get hurt. They only know how to hurt others, nothing else. 

I was expecting shouting from him but what he did was out of my imagination. He punched the glass of the door hard enough that it drew blood out of his knuckles. I gasped in shock as he did that. I wasn't expecting him to do that. Instinctively I took his hand to examine it. It's bleeding but he took it back from me immediately. I realised what I was doing. I lost control over myself for a moment and showed him my weakness. He is mad I shouldn't show him my weak side at any cost he can't know that I care. 

"Don't fucking touch me Anya Banerjee. No fake sympathy is needed. I won't let you make me suffer once again Anya. I won't let you fuck with me and my image once again. I have suffered a lot because of you but that's enough I won't anymore. If you don't want to lose everything of yours then don't even dare to break our engagement. If you do it I will make sure that you beg me to take you back in my life and that time I will show how Cruel Caliban knight can be." Caliban said and I came back to reality once again 

His words were like a slap on my face which showed reality to me. He will torture me if something goes against him he said that on his own. He can't be anything different from them. They all are the same at the end of the day. 

I smiled at him coldly and said to him

"If I live with you then I will lose myself forever, Caliban knight and about coming back to you only my dead body will go to you." 

Only I know how much it's hurting me to do this but what else can I do? Even if he doesn't do anything to me, what about Samantha? How can I throw her in front of them? 

"Then be it your dead body darling but I won't let you leave me at any cost. What will you tell your family? What will you say to Granny? When will they ask you the reason behind it?" Caliban asked and I looked with disgust at him 

"You're so fucking cheap and delusional Caliban. I will tell them what I want but dead or alive I'm not going to you ever." I told him with finality in my tone 

He ignored me and started driving the car as if I just didn't insult him. I am trying to break off the engagement but he isn't paying any heed to me. Unbelievable! 

"Where are we going? I don't want to go anywhere with you." I asked him angrily

"We are going to attend a party tonight. I'm taking you shopping after buying the dress. I will send you to the salon in the mall to get ready. You will behave tonight my love because if you don't then there will be consequences." He said and I glared at him angrily but said nothing 

It's not the time to lose my calm. I need something to flip it on him and I guess this party will give me a chance. Maybe he will give me a chance himself. I need to just grab it. 

A party huh? A party filled with rich arrogant women as well as men? I need to do something at this party itself to get rid of him and this engagement and I will do it. 

I will not let myself suffer because of you Morningstars I will never let that happen. I won't become another Samantha I Won't. 

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So finally they have a conversation which wasn't pleasant at all

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