Conquering Thy Billionaire's Heart (TLS #3)
Cinco
Chesi
It was a bright and sunny afternoon, until now I'm stuck in the four walls of my room. Mag dadalawang linggo na akong nasa kwarto lang. I only go out to eat dahil nagalit na sa akin ang kapatid ko.
"Ano? Nagpapakamatay kaba? Kung gusto mong magpakamatay, bigyan na lang kita ng tali. Go hang yourself then para wala na kong iniintindi!" Galit na galit na sigaw ni Franki sa labas ng pinto ko.
I guess she had enough of my dramatic ass. I can't blame her tho. I even wonder kung paano naging ganito kahaba ang patience niya sakin. She really loves me.
"Mom and Dad are super worried already! You should thank me for stopping them from visiting 'cos you know magkakagulo when they learn the truth! So you better fix yourself dahil I don't know how long I can stop them from going here!" She said and kicked my door so loud before walking away.
Dalawang sundays na ang hindi ko napuntahan for our weekly family day. She's right. Alam kong nag aalala na ng sobra ang magulang ko, lalo at may sakit pa ako. Franki just told them my mental health isn't in a good place right now that's why I pleaded to have my own space muna.
"How long are you going to let yourself suffer, Chesi?" I whispered to myself as I stared infront of my vanity mirror.
Dark circles, puff eyes and I also got thinner. My long chocolate brown hair are all over the place. What is wrong with you woman? The amount of stress, sadness and anxiety I'm having to deal with on a daily basis is insane.
I can't continue living like this. But how can I live when the reason for me fighting for my life is gone?
What is life even..
I also missed a doctor's appointment too for my monthly heart check up. I will seriously die if this goes on. This time in a literal sense.
I unconsciously put my right hand on my chest. I didn't tell anyone but because of everything that I'm feeling recently, my heart has been going through a lot of stress which is a bad thing dahil there's a possibility of having a heart attack anytime.
My heart is more fragile than what people think. This is the one of the reasons why I cannot do a lot of physical things. I am prone to having attacks kaya ganon na lang ka protective ang pamilya ko. They know to what extent this heart can do to me.
I admit, I am scared. Terrified even. I'm scared of the possibility na baka mamatay na ako anytime. I've never even once experienced an attack, thank God for that but I cannot be too sure that's why I get myself checked so often. My doctors here and abroad work with me closely as well. Fortunately we can afford the latest medical technology there is in the market because of my parents. I genuinely feel bad for those people who cannot kaya I never take things for granted.
"Ms. Chesi, your mother is on the line." Ani ng secretary ko na si Maria as I answered her call her at my office.
After that night, I finally decided to stop my pity party for now, and yes I know may continuation 'yan dahil I know I will never ever move on, I just can't. That's the fucked up truth of my life.
As much as I'm pretty much dead right now like a walking zombie because of the recent events, I cannot let everyone else suffer because of this stupid love that I'm feeling towards Klaus.
I acted as if nothing happened which kinda scares Franki and Saab. It has been a while now since the wedding news.
Tama naman ang kapatid ko, magkakagulo lang ang lahat. Ayako masira ang matagal na pagkakaibigan ng mga magulang namin. I know our parents will get mad at me and Klaus. Madadamay na din sila Franki. I'm also aware how much my Daddy adores the boys dahil wala kaming kapatid na lalaki. He also treats them like his own because of his friendship with Tito Migi.
If he knew that his little girl is heart broken because of one of them, he'll turn the world upside down.
"Okay, kindly connect me to her. Thanks, Mar." I thanked her.
Maria has been with me for a year now. She makes my career life so much easier. I don't think someone else can top the work that she does for me and this company.
I immediately heard my Mom's jolly voice on the other line. "Chesi, my love!"
I unconsciously smiled. I missed my mom. "Yes, Mother Dear? What can I do for you?"
I heard her laugh, "Ikaw talaga, 'nak. Stop being so formal with your beautiful mom." Kunyari naiinis nitong sabi.
Pinigilan ko matawa. How cute is my Mother? "Mom, please enough with the drama." Naiiling na lang ako. I fixed my posture at sumandal sa swivel chair ko.
I looked at the view of the Metropolis outside my huge office glass window. Sana easing peaceful ng tahimik na langit ang buhay ko. Not as chaotic as a storm.
Hindi ko alam kung bakit siya napatawag. I wonder why. I was able to talk to her naman for a bit the other day, catch up and all.
She wanted to visit me sa condo or to visit them instead but I really insisted that I'll visit them next weekend. She almost stood her ground but I was able to convince her, mabini na lang at binack upan ako ni Franki. I'm trying to recover still from my pain at halata ito sa mukha ko kaya ayako muna makita ang Mom ko.
Makikita at makikita ko sa office si Daddy, pero I can easily come up with an excuse. Si Mommy kasi mas malakas pakiramdam that's why I know she'll know I'm not in a very good place right now.
"Alright, alright.." She heaved a sigh. "My love, I forgot to tell you last time, just a reminder, ha, next week na ang kasal ni Klaus. Kailan ka ba hahanap ng susuotin para dun? You want me to accompany you to my designer right now after your work?" Mommy asked with excitement in her tone.
"She'll definitely make your dress a priority dahil sinabihan ko na siya. Tapos na ang damit namin ng kapatid mo, yung sayo na lang ang wala.. I know you were out of it for a while kaya hindi kita inistorbo but time is ticking, my love." Pangungumbinsi at pagpapaalala nito sakin.
I shut my eyes and held the phone so tightly when I heard that. Next week? Ganon na ba kabilis lumipas ang mga araw at linggo? Even Franki and Saab never mentions anything about it dahil alam nilang it'll just trigger me again and again.
How can I tell them that I don't want to attend that stupid wedding? Everyone will for sure wonder. Our families and to the people that know us.
I bit my lower lip, "Uh.. I-I'll see if I can attend, Mommy.." I panicked to think of a valid excuse. I'll do everything just so I won't be forced to attend. "B-Baka kasi I'll be drowned in paper works. You know naman I've been out of work for a couple of weeks. I-I need to catch up on a lot of stuff..." Pag rarason ko dito. I don't even know if it'll sell.
"Hay! Nonsense! Si Daddy mo na ang behalf. Kahit sa mismong wedding day ka na lang pumunta. No need sa rehearsal dinner. Just be at the day itself, okay?" I heard her tsked. "Wag ka na magdahilan, 'nak." Mom paused and suddenly asked something. "Teka nga.. Bakit ba nagdadahilan ka?" Her voice laced with curiosity.
Of course I'll never admit the real reason! I'm not asking for a death wish. Not now.
I harshly stood from my swivel chair and walked to the edge of my glass window. I defensively shook my head kahit na hindi naman niya nakikita.
"Nothing, Mommy! I-I'm really just busy.. You know? I'm a career woman now." I tried to hide my guilt and nervousness by saying it confidently. "Chill, okay." My head is hurting right now.
What a situation this is. I need to talk to Franki and Saab. I really don't want to attend. Baka magkaroon pa ng burial bigla sa church na 'yon instead ng wedding.
Imbes na maging 'Happy Wedding!' making 'RIP Franchesi Ylina dela Merced' pa.
"Ewan ko sayong bata ka. I feel like there is another reason but kilala mo ang Mommy mo, hindi ako marites like the others. Just make sure I'll see you there, alright? Magtatampo ang Tita Aura mo sayo at nandun ang lahat. Super stressed na nga si bakla.." Natatawang naiiling nitong comment,
"Oh siya, you figure out your dress then if ayaw mo na samahan kita. Pasama ka na lang sa kapatid mo."
I buried my face on the palm of my hands as I stressed out about this whole wedding thing, hay, I don't even want to say or think about it. Nasasaktan lang ako. It's like a continuous stab on my chest.
I'm trying my very best to be okay but no matter what I do, nothing seems to be working.
"I-I don't know what to do girls.." My voice broke and my eyes are swelling up again.
It's almost midnight and we're all currently at the condo. Saab is gonna spend the night with us dahil alam niya na it's a friendship emergency. No matter how busy she is with her family and wedding prep, she made time for me. Actually, wala dapat siya ngayon dahil busy nga silang lahat.
Halatang halata sa mga mata ni Saab ang stress at pagod. I genuinely feel bad for her and even her family bukod of course, kay Klaus. Sobrang rushed kasi for some reason 'tong kasal na 'to.
Franki took another vodka shot before speaking, "Cheesy, don't force yourself. Mom and Dad cannot do anything naman if hindi ka pupunta. Ano yun? Hahatakin ka nila palabas ng unit?" Sarcasm dripped in her tone.
"Besides, I rather you stay here with one of our house help or Maria even or kahit makipag date ka pa ulit kesa mag break down ka dun. We know you won't be able to handle such a scene. Aattend naman ako kahit na ayako." She's kinda tipsy na tho may point naman siya.
Napaangat ang ulo ko sa sinabi ng kapatid ko. I saw Saab nod in agreement to what Franki has said and gave me a reassuring smile like telling me it's okay even if wala ang bestfriend niya dun and I miss one of her brother's wedding. He is super important to her kaya wala naman din siyang choice kung supportahan ang gusto at decision ng kapatid.
Saab reached for my right hand. "It's okay. I'll reason out kila Mom why you're not there. Don't worry about it too much, ha? Just promise us na you will not do anything stupid during that time. I swear, me and Franki will kill you. Alam namin kung gaano ka kalove sick kay Kuya but there's more to life than the love you have for him... We're always here for you." Saab's eyes are starting to turn red. I know they're both hurting so much for me.
"You tell her, sister!" Franki edged on and enthusiastically said pero alam kong naiiyak din ito.
They both gave me a tight hug habang sunod sunod naman ang pagtulo ng luha ko.
(THIS CHAPTER IS UNEDITED)
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